I'm LOSING it.....

That's right! I'm LOSING it....so far, 6 lbs. And Eric's down 3 lbs this week. Yaaay for us!! Nine pounds between the two of us- that's a newborn baby Emma!

I am continuing to treat eating as an addiction...this means no little tastes, no cheats, no exceptions. And you know what? I don't miss that crap at all anymore. I'm not quite ready to sit in a room filled with birthday cakes, but I'm doing ok....

Eric is hitting the gym with a vengeance and continuing to count his points. I am finding yoga and meditation has helped me with any thoughts or cravings. I also find that getting on the Wii Fit keeps me on track because it weighs me and measures my body fat. Ugh. But it also helps me set reasonable weight loss goals!

I can't believe how much STRESS plays a factor in eating and weight gain! Whenever I start to feel the urge to stress-eat I deep breathe or chew a piece of gum and the urges pass.....I feel very peaceful about this new way of eating and living and I know I can keep it up. I have the support of my wonderful family and my amazing husband. What more could a girl ask for?

The eating/drinking madness has to end.

Like all good things, my eating and drinking has to come to an end. I've had a great time eating my way through the last 4 months and especially over the past week, but things have to change. I feel horrible, I look awful and I'm going back to work at a job where I'll be standing for 8hrs at a time....so, I've got my Dr. Phil books and my Wii fit and treadmill and a changing attitude!

The only problem is that I need to examine why I am such an emotional eater. Every time I'm sad, happy, bored, anxious, etc.... I stuff something in my mouth. So, what now??? Am I supposed to stop eating altogether or stop feeling anything?!!? I'm not sure how that's going to go, but Dr.Phil helped me before so I'm sure he's going to help me again!!

The good news is that Eric's also onboard. He needs my support to lose weight as much as I need his- we have been talking about it a lot lately, and it's nice to have the support of a partner who you can admit EVERYTHING to. Like, just yesterday, Eric went out to grab a couple of coffees and when he came back I blurted, "I ate 6 cookies while you were gone!" and he said, "Oh Jo....I almost, almost stopped to buy a sausage and egg bagel at McDonald's even though I feel like absolute sh*t from all the eating I've done." You can go to all the Weight Watchers meeting in the region and never find THAT kind of support!

I noticed that all the kids have packed on a bit of weight since I've been staying home. I just love to cook and bake!! I suppose I'll have to find a challenge in making low fat food taste just as good as the high-fat, high calorie, high good tasting stuff. I think my focus will change a bit when I go back to school next month and I won't be cooking/baking/eating to fill my time. That will affect the kids and we'll all lose some pounds.

Onward and Upward!!!!!!